Freshman in College

Freshman student. As yesterday was the last day of me being a college freshman student, oh wait I just realized a second ago, that I won't be a freshman student anymore. So yesterday was definitely the last day of me being called as a "Freshman student". Wow that overwhelmed me, otherwise though, maybe in the future I'll get another degree. Just maybe. I'll give that a 5% chance of winning. But let me go back to the main topic, my college freshman life.

High school would be the best highlights of my life, I proclaim that. There were lots of amazing memories during high school but none of those that I regret, even the embarrassing and disappointing ones. It's part of growing up, being stupid. Why didn't I regret any of it? Because basically I learned from it. Stepping from high school to college is scary.

The real world is scary, Philippines is scary, and people are scary. So is college. We can't stick on our false fantasies forever, there will always be a time where in we have to deal with the curve balls of reality. Reality is a puzzle of responsibilities, problems, stress, complications, commitments, and others. But no matter what, the right time will come where in you have to step forward and learn how to deal with these things. And that is college. I learned new things and met new people. I have to be honest with you, it was hard for me to let go off the place where I call home for several years and now I have to deal with university. I used to not talk to any of my block mates, I was the one that runs home right away whenever I have vacant or I am dismissed, and I used to sit on the corner just to observe people. I'm a wall flower, no just kidding, I was a complete introvert. But don't worry, I have friends now. I also learned how to stand on my own feet and have freedom, and had loooooooooooooooots of unexpected responsibilities that taught me to be a better me. I learned how to interact although I know I'm pretty awkward. I learned how to schedule my time, although there would be a day where in "Imma prone to procrastination coz y'all have to know that I ain't gonna give shit bout fuckin' school". We all have those days.

But most of all, I know college will help me to grow into an unimaginable version of me, a person who is ready to take on the world and give a big punch to the hole of reality. I'm willing to learn more, and this is the step by step stage of being a much better person. Why not take it right? The chance of being a much better version of me. Hell yeah! Why not!

Dear you, who is about to step onto college,

Don't be scared, because even though high school is over. New life, a new better chapter is waiting for you. You have to reach it with all your heart. Don't worry as well, even if you didn't gave much effort during high school which makes you anxious about the overload works that you have to do in college (as experienced by truly yours), you will be better this time. Trust me, you will because your soon to be profs will push you to your limits and you as well will push yourself beyond your limits, that's the time that you will do better. You will be motivated, not always, but often because you will be repeating the words "I need to pass this exam/quiz/or whatever" or even better words "I must get high grades" to yourself. And after all, your greatest fear is retaking a subject. Basically it would waste your time and money. The money that your parents earned after all their sacrifices and efforts. Think about that. I know you will be better, I do believe because I just know. So, good luck!

Truly yours,

New Year, New Chances

Happy New Year! Another year has passed again, I can't even imagine how fast it was. Another year for another "New Year" blog. How was your 2014? Mine was unpredictable. It was concoction between awesomeness and disappointments. Otherwise, 2014 was still a nice year although 2013 was more way better. Since I've already done loads of speech and flashbacks from my last year blog. Now I would like to share some of my "2015 Reminders". Maybe, you're now like "Oh you won't gonna achieve most of it." and I will be like "No, not most of it, just half of it." Just kidding tho. Well, instead of resolution (although I thought this would be alike with), I wanted to do a list of reminders which will remind me to be a better person than I was these last few years. Especially 2014, I was woo a whining baby. Maybe it's a good time to start living.

"Less Junk Foods, More Veggies"

I know, I know. I suck at eating veggies, but I thought that it won't kill me besides it'll help me to live more. I mean, bigger chance to meet death late.  And did you know, that I've been trying to eat veggies? Oh yeah, that's right, be proud of me. Come to mommy! After all, I know it's for the best. So you must hope and I must hope that I'll be eating more veggies this year and so on. Time to live a healthy lifestyle!

"Less Soda, More Water/Tea"

Yes I can drink soda everyday. But when I did that, I can actually feel how my body went weak. It really did. I felt like my bones and muscles are melting and I didn't bother to move more, and my legs were so weak. I can also manage a day without drinking anything, I swear. And I know, it's a very unhealthy habit. I'm trying to change that because water is very healthy for my body and skin. And tea is very healthy as well. I actually love tea but I barely drink it. Soda is a satan. Yes to Water & Tea!

"Less Lazing Around, More Working Out"

Sticking with healthy lifestyle. I remember on my semester break, I thought every night of every day of my semester break that I'll go for a jog in the morning and give more effort to exercise. But no, instead I went for a walk, 6 laps with Mama in one morning. That's it, such a big disappointment. Nothing more. Main reason was the existence of being lazy. 

"Less Procrastinating, More Studying"

Everyone already did "the procrastination". If you said that you didn't then you're a big fat liar. I'm actually a huge follower of procrastination clan although I don't think there's a clan for that. Since I'm a college student, I must focus more on my studies and get rid of distractions. Especially love life, ugh ew. I know I'll regret I said that, I still hope it won't be on my college days. Less distractions for good grades. Agree with me? This is college we're talking about. *snap*

"Less Negative, More Positive"
I've been reminding myself several times to think positive. Basically thinking positive helps us all the time. To have courage, to have hope, and to believe in yourself. Although negativity is inevitable, it's always our choice to choose between negativity or positivity. I recommend you choose positive. You don't want to get stuck in the hell of negativeness. It'll kill you. I know sometimes it's hard, but always always think positive. It's the most important weapon to live life. 

"Less Ungratefulness, More Gratitude"
We are given life, and for that we have to be thankful because we are so blessed. There are so many people out there that eat once a day. And we, we waste our foods if we lost our appetite. There are so many people there that lacks mostly things that we take advantage of. Sometimes it's a big deal for them and some of us just waste it. In everything, we are blessed. Less complaining would be very helpful for you to appreciate small things you have. In every way, we are blessed. Always be thankful.

Maybe there are still loads of reminders out there that I should have wrote here but I realized that I can't handle much pressure to achieve them all. Because I know I suck at it. I always have reasons or rather excuses not to do it. And I know it's not recommendable in my situation. Yes, I'm trying to change that bad habit because it's for the best. I hope this will be helpful for me, and for you as well (in some way). I'm still hoping a magical year for 2015. Add on, it's always our choice to make it wonderful. Challenges are inevitable and unpredictable but it's how we handle it that matters. It's always our choice. It's always us. Do not forget to reminisce good times of 2014 before welcoming 2015. It'll be a great year, I'm telling you.

Good luck & Happy New Year!
"365 days, 365 chances"

31 Days Left

31 days left of 2014! That's insane! We have to make this month a memorable one, coz why not. A month of appreciation, of all the experienced through out the year, all the good and bad times. This entire year was so fast. I started college, anxiety, anxiety, anxiety, confused, bravery, happiness, and positivity. Basically this year was so hard for me (compared to 2013's loveliness), but before this year will end, positivity finally got into my nerves. Thank God.

I don't know when I started to eat out the positiveness around me, it's just... one day I chose positivity. I've gone through a lot this year, new terrible things. But now, it's okay, for me it is all just a lesson that I have to learn from, and I didn't regret that it happened. I just have to learn to let go of the past because you know, everything happens for a reason. I thank God everyday for all the blessings that I have received from Him. I'm very thankful. One thing that I learned as well is: Be thankful of what you have every time and you won't gonna have any time complaining on what you don't have. I was a whining child before I learned to believe and apply that to myself. Obviously Philippines isn't luxurious as Saudi Arabia, and I used to always complain at everything. And I still don't regret that I did that, because if I didn't do that, I would have still all my hatreds in my heart. At least now, I know that I've already let it all out. Let it go! Let it go! Can't hold it back anymore! And I don't have any hatreds anymore. I don't know what really happened to me to be this positive, it's like magic. 

Since I came here in the Philippines, I've been so busy and as you can see on my blog list, seems like I have no interesting documents. But hopefully in 2015, I'll make it a better year. After all, this year was full of lessons, and it was haaaaard. And still, I'm very thankful.

PS: "You have one month to finish the book of 2014. Make the last chapter a perfect one."

Friday Summary: Such A Nice Day!

My day was basically as sweet as that sexy brownie above. I had a nice day in school today since finally I've already met my new profs, they were nice, of course. I was so excited to learn something new from my new subjects, oh yes my new subjects were fascinating. Let me add, I have loads of new classmates as well (some of them are attractive). I've already received my designated report in Economics which will be presented on January, thankfully. 

Of course, I was with my mom after my classes, we went for lunch in KFCPhilpinnes. And let me just add (although I know this isn't intresting) that I've already tasted the Spicy Gangnam Chicken. I would rate it for 7/10. It doesn't taste like what I expected it to be, but it's okay, it was yummy. We went to my Auntie and she entertained us very well, she's my fave aunt in the whole wide world. And we get back to town.. we went shopping, I bought my needs. It was soo fun! Seriously! If shopping isn't fun for you, I think we have a problem. After all the hassles of going shopping, we went to Dunkin Donuts for snacks. The branch where we ate was so pretty, it was newly decorated. I want to blog it, but my phone was in its low battery. So next time, hopefully.

Above all, I had a very very very nice and blessed day. Blessed day everyday. Everything is a blessing, be thankful because you're blessed (esp you have internet because you're reading this, and others wasn't lucky enough to afford a wifi). So please do thank God for everything. That would be all for now. I hope you had a nice day as well as I did. Always do remember that everything happens for a reason. SMILE!

Happy Birthday Immanuel Cris!

This guy right here is about to step into another year of his life. He has gone through a lot of pain in the past few years. Although I've only known him for 8 months, I sometimes assume that it was 8 years. We've changed thoughts and stories and made that 8 months a memorable one. I've learned a lot from him, he gave me loads of friendly advice that I sometimes get mad at but in the end it's all worth it. Take note, he's a smart ass. IDOL! Haha. We argue A LOT as well (HAHAHA), but most of it were jokes but sometimes I pretend it didn't matter to me when it actually was. Oh now you know angry bird! He's very annoying and weird and corny and it makes me mad sometimes. At the end of the day, it was okay with me, he is who he is. I can't change that, all I can do is accept who he really is. And I did. 

Hey there my non biological brother, angry bird, smart ass, Arrow buddy, book buddy, and partner in crime! How are you now ha? Big time ka na. UP NAKS! AKO NAMAN UZ HAHAHA! I'm so proud of you. You deserve all your achievements, you deserve the best. Because I know how hard you work for it. You are one workaholic man and I'm the opposite. Thank you so much for everything! You cared so much, and I'm very grateful. I can still remember the first time we met, it was ridiculous. Someone told me you need me because you have something to discuss with me about CAdT stuff, and when I saw you... I thought you were ugly. Hahaha! Oh you were with Jules as well. That was our first conversation ever, CAdT stuff. And you were shaking because I think you thought I was tough, but no I wasn't, because I told you "Wag kang kabahan..", I'm so nice to you y'know.. back then. Oh! Do you remember when all of you guys thought I lost in Dammam. That I went missing. You even called my parents and told everyone that I was really missing. Oh my God, that was so hilarious because the next day, everyone was asking me if I was okay or how did I got home which makes me so confused and thank goodness someone explained to me why others were asking me stuff. Haha! You are such an idiot! Hahaha! But, thank you so much, big bro. I'm sorry for being a bitchy friend to you but let me tell you this; that's how I show my love. AND! Being so so so so so careless every time. Especially that I left our photobooth photos in McDonalds. Those were beautiful photos that I lost. It makes me so sad every time it pops into my mind. Don't you worry, we will capture more photos when we meet again someday. LOADS OF PHOTOS. 

I hope you the best. And get a perfect girl. I'm sorry when I was stopping you to flirt with other girls, remember? We had a fight because of it and it was ridiculous. I just care for you, I don't want that another girl will hurt you again. I'm your sister, it's part of my responsibility to tell you that. Friendly advice: Don't rush something you want to last forever. Wait ka lang, darating din siya. Magiging worth ang lahat.  

Thank you for everything! I miss you! I miss hanging out with you, Aldrix, Kath and Chummy. I love you all so much! Take care of yourself. You're still my friend, I'm still your friend. Oops, "best friend". 

Beautiful Day

The world is beautiful. Life is good.

♥

My Best'est Friend

Let me warn you that this blog might be a dramatic one. 

I know a friend that has the longest patience and I'm lucky to be her friend. I know a friend that is always there for me. I know a friend that is very beautiful inside and out. I know a friend that always understands me all the time. I know a friend that has loads of problems but she doesn't want to be affected by it. I know a friend that gives a lot of effort to the people she loves. I know a friend that anyone would be so lucky to be her friend. I know a friend that I can probably keep forever. That's my best friend, Nikki Royce Bartolome Enriquez.

I'm going to tackle with you how lucky I am to be her best friend. Summer of 2013, I was such a total messed up. Which means that anxiety was always bothering me. She was there for me. She talks to me 'til midnight and making sure that I'm okay, because I was having insomnia all the time. Honestly, she's the only person that I talk to about my anxiety and insomnia. I'm expecting she won't understand, but she tried and she did. That is so impressive because not all people can truly understand it. She helped me turn my negatives to positives. She is really a positive person, which is amazing because I needed a friend like her at that moment. For me, that is the most amazing thing she did for me. Yes, it is. I am truly blessed cause she was there for me. Next, I had boys issues, and she of course helped me handle it. She made ways to make complicated things clear. Without her being brave talking to boys, I would probably be confused 'til now. She was there for me.  She managed the COCC to greet me on my birthday even it wasn't necessary. She made my birthday special. She was there and she even took a video of it. She and Sara made cakes for my birthday and it was a surprise. Honestly, I really had no clue that'll happen. I mentioned it on my previous blog here. It was impressive and she was there for me. Before I went to Dammam, she stayed at my house as it was the last time we'll gonna see each other. She was there for me, even the time that I'm going to leave her in Riyadh. Those are the special things she did for me and I have to say she did LOADS, not just those. She is amazing.

I would like to take this opportunity to say that I sincerely thank you for what you've done for me. You've done lots of things for me that I think I haven't payed off. You are truly an amazing person. I know you're kinda being a negative person because of me. Always remember that I will always be here for you even in your darkest moments like what you did for me before. Thank you so much that you are my friend even though (maybe) you can't handle my attitude because I'm a bipolar. Thank you for always understanding me even it is already hard, because I know it is hard to be my friend. It is hard to pretend that it was okay with you even it wasn't. I know it is hard. I can feel it. But this is me, I can't fully change myself now. That is why I can count my friends. Thank you so much for being there for me, always. Even if we have arguments, you're still there. And, you're still my best friend. I couldn't thank you enough but thank you so much. I really really love you, always remember that, even if I act like I don't. Haha. Thank you so so so much!

I'm sorry for being such a brat friend. I'm sorry for always bullying you. I'm sorry that I'm always hurting you. I'm sorry when I scream at you. I'm sorry for being moody all the time. I'm sorry that I don't reply back. I'm sorry for taking you advantage. I'm sorry for not being a good best friend. I'm sorry that I'm not responsible that I couldn't take care of our friendship well because I'm a freak. 

Thank you for everything. I vow to be your best friend 'til death. I love you so much, tabachoychoy!

God bless! 

Always remember that everything

happens for a reason

♥

Phone Photo Diary

Hello! Hello!

Last week I realized that I have loads of photos on my phone that I have to transfer in my laptop. And while I was scrolling through all the photos, I just couldn't stop smiling because there are so much memories I had with "The Best Batch Ever". Yes, most of the photos are with them. Oh! Aldrix's selfies rather. Haha, but seriously the photos were so precious that it actually pushed me to upload all of it on facebook but then, I still don't have the guts to upload them, but I can blog them. As I said, there way too much photos on my phone that I can not just blog one by one. So, I've decided to combine them using Photoscape, and I just chose some. Ladies and gentlemen, here is my Phone Photo Diary.

Highschool Graduation 2014

1. With Karlie Dabu

2. With our veledictorian, Yen yen

3. With RJ Omega, along with Juril (photobomb)

4. "Beautiful flowers to two special girls" -IC / With Kathleen and IC

5. With my fave teacher, Mrs. Annaliza Catanus

6. With the black beauty, Gail

7. With the one and only Aldrix

8. With my beloved Chummy (Yasmin Mua)

9. With the best cadet of Charlie Phatom, Duque a.k.a Danny Phantom

10. With my non biological brother, IC Kilay

11. With the dancer, Sameera

12. Family dinner with Mader & Pader, Mugs, and Fhar

13. WOW SELFIE SELFIE EWS

Random Photos

1. First photo on my phone with someone: Zy and Bayn

2. Lunch date with my sister, Fhar

3. Chit chats with some of the first year students

4. Practice for Graduation (Jhustine took the photo)

5. Hanging out with Aldrix, Chummy, IC, and Kath

6. Plus, with the couple Jios and Gail

7. Days 'til Graduation = 1

8. With VS partner, Aldean

9. With Cier

10. With Rolf

11. With Miko and Roxanne

12. With EM and Bonn

13. With the corps and guinea pig, Kendall

14. With my height twin, Emil

15. With my girl crush, Cherlyn

16. Mint lemonade at TGIFridays

17. Ordered pasta in TGIFriday, love the kinda garlic bread though

18. Schedule for events HAHAHA

19. Fish tail by Bea (Danah)

20. Poutyy with Aldrix and Kyle

1. I forgot why I was laughing, with Aldrix and Kyle

2. With bus mate, Yasser

3. Same shoes with my Chummy

4. The Fam (Chummy, Kathleen, IC, Me, Aldrix) with photobomber Jonathan

5. Pouty with Aldrix

6. With the narcissistic Jhustine

7. The narcissistic model, Jhustine

8. With Jess!

9. With the pretty Hannah

10. With Diananananah

11. With Bayn

12. Groupfie! (Kishan, Chummy, Kyle, Ronnel a.k.a Theodore from Chipmunks

13. With the most bully-er and bus mate, Rackman

14. Palabok shoes with Kath and Chummy

15. Heading to Manila with Mader and Fhar @ Emirates Airplane

16. With my sister @ Emirates Airport 

1. The sky | Heading to Zamboanga City

2. Fountain @ MOA with Aunt Mileth, Mader, and Fhar

3. Now showing: Divergent | Loved the movie though

4. Playing with bro IC @ MOA Timezone

5. Me playing car racing with the help of IC and Ate Faith| Haha! I suck at games. @ MOA Timezone

6. Trying to play drums with the help of IC @ MOA Timezone

Last but not the least.. The Melody! I love them so so much. Heby wasn't there so I drew her. Now we're complete! I really have this amazing drawing skills, am I right? Thanks. HAHA! That was our very last day together and the last photo wherein we are complete. I had an amazing school year because of them. Thank you so much, Melody. For sure, we will see each other again. All of them deserves a lot of blessings. So, 'til next time.

Laughter is the best medicine

God bless you

Hello 2014: Hope of a New Year

2012 was a very tough year for me and I promised myself that in 2013, I will do everything that I can to make this year magical. So, I would like to reminisce every wonderful scenarios that are still vivid in my memories. I will definitely never forget all of those wonderful moments, because they are worth keeping for.

As I have said, my 2012 year was somehow ugly and it wouldn't be possible for me to go on with my miserable life without my friends beside me. They were there for me, to comfort me and do every stupid things that they can to make me happy. Junior life ended this year and everything was just getting good. I felt that this year will really be a good one. Before it ended, I have this Mead composition notebook where almost all of my batch mates wrote/drew anything they wanted. And for me, it was a nice memorabilia. To those who took their time to write in my mead.. Thank you! I promise I will never lose it no matter how reckless I am. I love everything in there. I will truly keep it forever.

I used to blog in Tumblr and then I realized that it kinda doesn't fit in with the whole reblogging photos, so I made this blog to just write anything I wanted to broadcast, write things as they happen that you might find them interesting. In all seriousness, I made this blog to write nice memories and when I get older I will come back and read all of them. You have no idea how exciting that is for me, although I think I will be real embarrassed to all the things that I have blogged but the amazing thing is, I have something that will always remind me of my good times before I go to college or before I get married. It's just nice to have a blog. Honestly, I love blogging because it makes me happy in some way. Maybe, you should start blogging. After you read this entire blog, you sign up to blogger.com and tell me your URL because I will definitely be glad and honor to read your blog. Just remember, it doesn't have to be real interesting, you have to write your thoughts out and be happy about it.

The beginning of my Senior year was amazing, seeing my friends again was a great feeling because I just got out of my prison-home. Great opportunity came in, being the President of Student Council, and that wouldn't be possible without my Monster's University Family. I made a blog about them before, so I guess that I'm not going to input much information about them. They're just amazing and they're like my sisters. Yes, they are all ladies. I love you, my Lil' Monsters. (Link) July came by and everything was so amazing, not just because it is my fave month. It's just, I have realize that it was really a great month. Check my blog about it: Click here

My first and last Science Fair (I guess) was incredible, in fact Perseus class was the committee organizers, though it was our first time and it was kinda hassle, we still didn't let Sir Raul down otherwise he'll surely give us a massive slap in the face (no, just kidding). For me, it was a great opportunity to be part of the Science Fair and thanks to Sir Raul for giving us that opportunity. I learned that some fruits are capable of lighting a bulb, at first it was sorta unbelievable for me but when we lit it. All I can say was "Woah!". It was a busy and fun day for us.

My last performance in RIS before I went here in Dammam was performing Jazz Dance. My group was very cooperative and because of that, our performance was great although we have given a little amount of time to practice. I wanted it to be a good one because it was my last so I did my best to finish our routine as soon as possible and I did. Actually, it wasn't a competition, it was just a practical examination. Realizing that it was my last performance in RIS in that moment was heartbreaking but at least, I did my best and made our performance great and our practice days (thighs-and-legs-sore days) memorable.

See You Soon Party was unforgettable. It was my last day of exam in RIS, last day of wearing my RIS uniform, last day of sneak peek of the school, last day of seeing all the students in Girl's Section, and last day of being with Perseus Ohana. My Monster's Univ family was the first one to surprise me. Some of the officers of SSC had their own speech for me, and it was so flattering. The last one who made a speech was Nikki, one word for her, dramatic. Haha. Then, we finally ate the cake. I have to admit that the cake was impressively delicious. Out of the blue, Ms. Nez (our adviser) came in and gave me a little present that I consider as a remembrance from her. It was a boxed Beauty Rush-Juiced Berry collection (Body 3-in-1 wash for shower, bubble bath and hair, Body drink lotion, and Lip gloss) and a Revlon baby purple lips stick. I was so happy that she gave me those although I'm not a beauty-ish person. It was just flattering to receive a present from my teacher. Jenny also gave me a memorabilia, it was a ring, and she said that she made it for me, it was her hobbie. Next surprise party was from Perseus which I expected, there was an intermission number, we played games, and we have snow sprays to play with. I received lots of hugs before I went to ATIS (Al Taj Int'l School) to visit Bhe (Pamela Locsin).

I went to ATIS with Nikki and Fhar. Nikki was with me because she wanted to, and it was hard for me to allow her but in the end, I still did allow her. She's a brat. When we arrived in Bhe's school, we had no idea if she was still there or how to contact her besides I don't have a cellphone. Thank goodness, I saw one of her classmate and asked her if she may call Bhe for me. Bhe was walking forward to us then I hugged her. She invited us to go to her classroom, I said yes because why not. When we got there, she has only one classmate left, Bhe introduced me to her. After that, Bhe called Ms. Zeny (a former teacher in my school), I was so happy to see her again because she is one of my favourite teachers and she is just literally so nice and smart.

When we finally got home, my mother was surprised to see Nikki with me because I didn't had a chance to tell her. Nikki gave me a Candymag magazine and the entire magazine was about Daniel Padilla. You have no idea how much I freaked out at that moment, I couldn't breathe so well because I kept on screaming how happy I am. Nikki, thank you so much. Love youu. Plus, it has a huge poster of Daniel Padilla. I love it so much. Then, my mother ordered pizza and broasted chicken, it was so yum yum and I actually miss it now.

I would like to input a real nightmare. I was at school for a review class. We had an hour break, and we decided to play the game in Conjuring movie (it was the clap-clap thingy), I was the one who'll find them with my eyes closed. Stupidly, I hit my face to the wall especially my lips. I had an unskinned part on my upper lip and lower lip and I have to admit that it was massively painful that I can not stop myself from crying so hard like a baby. Just an advice, never play that game if you are stupid.

My new friends here are awesome, they completed my year. I want my friends in Riyadh to meet them because I'm sure they will gonna love them as much as I do. Our Foundation Day was recent this December. In high school, it was a cheer dance competition. Aquilas was Senior's name in cheer dance. Practicing all day in one week was hard but worthy because everyone was very cooperative. And because of that event, I can feel that I am already comfortable with them. Honestly, at first it was hard for me to communicate with them because I'm shy and afraid of being judged. But getting along with them in loads of time makes me realize that they are easy to hang out with and there is nothing wrong if I show them the real me.

I love this year so much. There are so many things that happened whether it was good or bad, everything was just worth it. All the things that happened this year made me learned my lessons, made me strong, made me believe that giving up is never a choice, made me move on with my life, made me solve my problems, and made me who I am now; A strong, happy, and contented girl that never gonna hurt herself again no matter what. Those people who stood beside me for better or for worst are the most important people in my life. I am a drama queen and crazy but you guys are still there for me. I couldn't thank you enough, but thank you so much. To those who hurt me, thank you so much for hurting me at least now, I am stronger. Don't worry, I don't have bad feelings for you because I'm happy for who I am now and I'm happy that it happened, it was worth it, I promise. I still hope that you guys had a very nice year as much as I did. Those scars are healed now, that wouldn't be possible without those important people in my life.

If you think that this year was tough for you. Remember that there is still beauty in this world and it is magical. Before midnight in New Year's Eve, I want you to promise yourselves that 2014 will be a great year and you will do everything that you can to make it a real great year. Or make a New Year's Resolution list, it will not hurt you to try. Although I didn't made one, but I just thought that maybe it will work for others because seriously, it doesn't work for me.

Honestly, I don't wanna let go of this year because it has been a magical year. I'm a bit scared of 2014 because of college and I have no idea what will happen to me in the Philippines, and Philippines is a big scary place for me. For my future's sake, I will do everything to survive college in the Philippines, besides God is there to give me strength. So before we celebrate the New Year, it wouldn't hurt us if we sit back and remember our achievements and mistakes. I love New Year because it reminds me of getting another chance, a chance to get great opportunities, to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more, and to stop worrying of what ifs. When it's 11:59 PM in New Year's Eve, never forget that there will always be hope and this is it, the hope of a new year.

Have a nice year. Advance Happy New Year! God bless.
Always remember that everything happens for a reason.

Happy Mother's Day Mama!

I just wanna make a quick blog about Mother's Day.

First of all, Happy Mother's Day to all the moms out there especially to my wonderful mother. She is the best thing in my life, without her.. I don't know what to do with myself. I love her so much though I don't usually show it. She always asks me if I love her, I do love her.. I love her more than myself. *I'm literally getting teary eyed* She carried me for 7 months in her womb (I know usually it's 9 months, but I'm a 7 months baby), and that's a pretty long time. She taught me everything, more than a teacher can teach me. I know that I've done tons of inappropriate things as a daughter to her (I'm not saying that I literally torture her). But that doesn't mean that I don't love her. We're teenagers, we do something that's uncontrollable. I'm not a perfect daughter, but since I'm mature now.. I'm trying to be a perfect daughter (though it's impossible), I try not to hurt her as much as I could. I have the best mom in the world! No one can explain (I myself can't) how much I love her. I wish I have the guts to just say how much I love her personally. Obviously, I'm not showy. Whenever I try, I just can't talk and I start getting teary eyed that's why I don't usually say that I love her personally. I wish I could someday. I love my mother so much!

♥

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